A collision of fate and dreams;

People change, people come, people go. Sometimes, things change without you even realizing it. And before you know it, you're down a one way road. It has been a pretty rough week for people around me. Somehow. It just doesn't make sense, everything that people have cherished, took it as their pride, their pleasure. How did it end up this way?? :( I'm honestly appalled. Too much heartaches around, too many dramatic happenings. And, when the people closest to you end up being the ones judging you, how's that supposed to feel? 

Yet, amidst the darkness of it all, I see some sparks. Which should not even matter, but it does, in an oddly fashion that even I can't explain. 

Dance never took on such a formidable meaning until now. I mean, it isn't like yesterday that I just started dancing. To be honest, dance went way back to when I was just 10 years old? Dancing in church, being exposed to several genres..although I've only started hiphop and street dance recently, I think I've found where my passion really lies. It's also very heartening to be with a group of people, being surrounded by individuals who have the burning passion for something so similar. It's like being placed into your own home, like where everyone just belongs. The various abilities of individuals help to encourage others in pushing themselves harder and forward, and I really, really, really love the spirit of it all. Netball's a sport, a team sport. So it's natural for a team to be working together and training for a similar goal. But dance is the knowledge of your own body. And to a certain extent, it's pretty much individual. To be able to find a group of people to fire up the passion for dance is just, I don't know, indescribable? :') 

It's been a pretty crazy week! Let's see, nothing short of fun, fun and more fun haha! An impromptu drinking session on tuesday, ktv with Jea on Friday, and I guess the highlight of the week was Friday night, when we played Running Man in RH! And before that we had a few games and a few drinks before the start, it was pretty insane. Imagine shooting in the dark at like 1am, and penalty for a miss shot? One shot. Haha everyone was pretty high after that! And running about in RH, and YIH, oh gosh. It was crazy I swear I wouldn't have dared to walk alone by myself at YIH if not for the drinks. But all in all, it was THE BOMB. It didn't just end there, we played games and all til breakfast! What a way to end our Year 1 in NUS indeed. 

AND I JUST BOUGHT A NEW PAIR OF ADIDAS SHOES. AND I COUNTED THE NO. OF SHOES I HAVE. GUESS WHAT. I'VE 20 PAIRS ZOMG. 

Can't wait to watch Avengers, Street Dance 2 again, KTV, and party, and Oschool this week!! Filled week to the maximum, i like! And hopefully we can secure our jobs soon. 








Check out my new shoes! it's only $30! hehe

Ever had this feeling of wanting to find back yourself, but the environment surrounding you doesn't seem to permit? Like being too caught up in the mainstream it takes more than a step to retrieve the feeling that deems, you. I've been having this feeling for quite awhile. It's like being thrown into a place where you constantly have to go with the flow, pretty much just the same as anybody else. But, what if that's not truly you? What if you're not who they think you are. Or rather, who they portray you as. I am actually envious of some of my friends who have the courage, and the ability to just do whatever they want, be whoever they truly are. Not that I'm not being myself I'm being myself 99% of the time. But it's just that 1% within that I can't seem to fit into any aspects of my current life. Current lifestyle. It just takes more than that for me. Yet at the same time, I'm getting sick of it. I want to get that 1% that has been missing in my life now. To stand up to who I truly am, even if it is not mainstream.

Anyway, fredy's class was wow. Although it was really packed and crowded and ugh I don't know what to say, but the steps were something that I've yet to try, and by doing so, I'm stepping out of my comfort zone. Which isn't a bad thing of course, I guess I just got to get used to it. Steps to being a versatile dancer. :) Leveling up is my aim. 

Now that exams are over..It feels weird. I don't know how to describe this feeling. It's almost as if plans are constantly being made, schedules are tight, everyone is up to something. Yet there's this somewhat immense, or should I say, recurring solitary-like atmosphere that is constantly hovering around me. Maybe it's just because its 4am in the morning and my mind feels a little fucked up haha. 

Solitude finds everyone in the end.
Or maybe it just finds people who fear the word, company. 
Fear the act of sharing life. The acquired independence that one refuses to let go of. 
But maybe, she just needs to open up her world just a little. 

Well. Whatever. Need to sleep it off. And sleep my hunger off too. :( 

To do list!
SLEEP 10 HOURS AND ABOVE.
DANCE @ OSCHOOL 4 TIMES A WEEK.
PERFECT MY SPLIT.
FIND A JOB :(
PARTY!
DRINKING SESSIONS WITH LE FRIENDS
WATCH RM + VAMPIRE DIARIES + KDRAMA
WATCH SYTYCD + ABDC7
WATCH AVENGERS AND BATTLESHIP. (#foreveralonemuch)

need to study mega hard tomorrow. 
But Running Man's ultra funny noooo scumbag 2218 Y U DO THIS TO ME :(

I've got Be a Man stuck in my head, oh dear. Stupid WC. Had an awesome dinner at the Yacht Club today! The appetizers itself were filling enough, and by the time the main course came I was like 3/4 full. A random, okay not so random but yeah a dinner to celebrate my cousin's registration of marriage! About time he did that!! AND HIS YACHT IS COMING NEXT WEEK. HOW COOL IS THAT. 


My main course! Grilled Rum Pork Medallion

My dad's Lamb, something, haha

And of course, with every good dinner comes wine.. :D

Okay time to study, JUST 2 MORE DAYS TO FREEDOM. And I realised blogging is quite fun afterall. Haha! 

The many thoughts you have in your mind before you sleep, 
the wildest dreams you have during your sleep.
The harsh reality that hits you when you awake.
Funny how life works isn't it?

I want new specs! Haha. And the weather's perfect for sleeping again. But nuuuuuuuu~ Just 2 more days to FREEDOM. Into the world of dance and partying and slacking and watching Running Man and ABDC and SYTYCD and everything else. CAN'T WAIT FOR IT.


Hello ^^

Missing some old memories, thinking about some people, reminiscing the older days. How cruel, the mind